suppose to be doing my tutorial.
but i've got some things on my mind.
really tired. nights are all taken up.

played squash today! was my first time (thanks A.Kang) for teaching =) you were super patient! thank you =)
it was pretty fun! although i did suck at it!
nothing aches yet but i'm sure that wont be true when i wake up.

there's many things that are innate to me.
to love, to be nice, to just about everyone.
but perhpas its true, i am often TOO nice. and often not nice enough when i have to be.

but actions are hurting me. they're contrary to words. and i really appreciate when someone means what he says and says what he means. lip actions just dont count. what is done is what matters most. friendships require mutual trust. how do i trust when i hear something yet see a different thing?

cause i do care who was there before.
i've closed the door and turned the key.
cause i cant open up and fit one more.
not until its worth it again
or someone turns the tide.