i miss a lot of things. a lot.
random things that mean a lot.
being able to talk nonsense with mama L, being able to text nonsense to MM,  so many things.
but we cant always have what we want can we?
school steals away a huge part of me.
one that i cant just prevent it from snatching.

on a happier note, a lot of people around me are falling in love!!! =)
hahahaha!!! its super sweet. to see people fall in love =) makes me really happy. =)
its a precious gift, one that i really hope and pray would continue on =)
and kor as well as half my friends are tryin to get me married off or smth -.-'''
i've got so many stirrings going on that i dun even know which love triangles i'm in now -.-'''
pretty funny most of the times. hahahaha
thanks, but no thanks. its just not my time.
and IF it ever is my time (and that is a HUGE If) i'm not sure if i can handle it or truly find someone who would accept me as i am.
so for now, maybe forever, i'll share in the joy of seeing my friends in love =)


"the sadness never truly goes away"
why? =(
i'll wait. for it to fade. perhaps it might, perhaps it might never. but at least it just creeps up unexpectedly and not goes on continuously. and for that i'm thankful <3
this is why it was such a blow. for it took me so much to get back on my feet. and i was carelessly and somewhat accidentally knocked down again. but i'm back on my way up =)

okies back to my SSA webcast. sighs.
current song stuck in my head : Baby Please Dont Go, Mike Posner