The New Year, 2011 is dawning upon us.
2010 has passed, way too fast.
i always wonder, how to make time last.
but i know that change is a must.

2010 has indeed been a year of a lot of change.
a year of so much growing.
a year of so much tears.
a year of so much love.
a year of so much pain.
a year of so much love.
i wonder, if i could go back in time, would i change anything that happened?
i truly have no answer for it.

i wont make a new year resolution. for resolutions are not really meant for me. and like every yr, i will just aspire to grow more, to be a better person. =)

i guess there's always a fear of rejection, of neglect, of replacement, of not being needed, of not being worth it, of not being special, of not being important... REPLACEMENT. NOT NEEDED.
humans innately need to feel needed on some sense. or else they'll feel that their lives have no purpose.
it isnt exactly easy especially when people dont often make you feel needed especially special people in your life. perhaps its insecurities, perhaps its just nonsense feelings that shouldnt exist. but whatever it is, it isnt nice, and its difficult to deal with =(
maybe i've got issues, but you're pretty messed up too (sighs -.-''')


Happy New Year,
May it be a blessed year ahead for one and all.
With Love, Ris.